Friday, September 2, 2011

Doing The Next Thing

To be completely honest, the last few weeks have been tough. The post by Ann Voskamp, What To Do When You Want To Give Up And Stay In Bed, has resonated deeply with how I have been feeling.

Physical and emotional issues have me feeling like I am walking around with sandbags tied to my limbs. Stress is weighing heavy on me and my symptoms mirror every checklist that I have seen for Adrenal Fatigue.

Without getting into too many details, the situation with my step-daughter has taken a turn and I am once again staring down the dreaded task of cleaning out things from her closet. We were graced with about a month with her this summer, but it appears that it will again be a while before she’s with us.

I am processing all of the angry, dark, loss-of-child feelings and it is a heavy place.

I know that, in time, the clouds will clear. In time, I will be able to shift from clinging to a desire to know why and how long to letting go to God’s plan in all of this.

For now, I am getting through one task at a time. One step at a time. One prayer at a time. Today, I will take a deep breath and a box and do what needs to be done. Then, I’ll do the next thing.

If needed, minute by minute, I will try to remind myself to trust in His plan.